Sorry~

Well, like i said in my previous post.... i been really bad tempered lately and i would like to apologize for the things i had done.... I dont know if u will visit my blgo or not but at least i will write apologization post just for this. I dont know how to apologize personally cos i not really good with words and i might ruined things. Sorry for the bad words i said. Sorry for the misconduct. I got 1 thing i am not apologizing about. Its about a stupid lecturer who think she is always right~! I dont mind u want to pick on me. I am the rotten apple in the class so dont go bother the other seniors~! Besides that stupid lecturer, i hope all other people in my school or badminton life or jsut normal friends will accept my apology... I am really sincere about this and i hope there in more misunderstanding among us anymore... Regret cant solve anything thing but taking the action to apologize might be a cure to unhappiness. SORRY~~~

Shut~

Its been a long time since i last posted the a post. Currently in my school's Pc Lab waiting for my transport to arive. Its annoying need to wait for transport after class... With all the boring theory class everyday it really makes someone irritated of going to school. School isnt a good place to spend our extra time afterall...
I played in a competition last week. Its call Swinburne Invitation Badminton Championship. I wasnt in a good form for a couple of weeks now but i tried my luck in it. I registered myself for mens doubles and mix doubles. Due to certain policies, i cant choose my partner but i definately got 2 good partners for both category. Of cos, i lost terribly because i am not good enough for the compeitition but participating in it taught me a lesson. I will never go for a competition ever again without any training basics to backing me up.. Sorry to both my partners Lai and Karen because i did really badly..
My new house which is located in a new housing area dont have a telephone line at all and i cant online like i used to. Since the school's pc have been upgraded, i dont mind using them for my personal stuff anymore. The keyboards are good, the system is fast. the internet line have been upgraded as well. Now watching manga at school isnt any problem at all. Not bad huh?
Yes, now back to the point for my title... Lately i been really pissed. Maybe its because i keep losing my cool and cant control me bad temper lately. There is this guy who keep forcing me to the peak of my nerves making me want to scream everytime he do something like that. So wad ur good? Try do it for a living! Dont know how to release my stress i just blown of like a volcano... I cant regret it because all the damage had been done and its irreversible.. From now on maybe its time for me to keep shut or my school properties have to suffer for my lost control insane "small gas" pathetic temper.
Controling myself had been a great challenge for me. I thought i manage well in controling myself when i was in the National Service camp but the truth is the temper controling abilities are just temporary. IF i dont have this bad temper i wonder what kind of life will i be having.... Less suffering maybe? Or, maybe more stress? Haha... Who knows until i really succeed in doing it.
Thats all for now, God bless me for the things i wanna go and may God bless u to live a better life than me. Bye~

Wait~

I'm at my school's library now, nothing to do because my class ended 1 hour and 25 mins earlier... It was an one hour and a half sesion class but then teacher taught everything in 5 mins. XD nice hor?
I just moved house recently and my new house area dont even have a telephone line. I cant online and its really annoying... i miss the times when i could sit in front of my pc and chat with close friends and even "her". I cant play games online and playing it with the ai really sucks~!
I will need to wait for few months for the telephone line to be installed... I wish i could survive till then. Maybe bored to death or maybe i might die of sickness... Lately i dont feel well, gastric and those annoying sickness keep attacking me 1 by 1...
OK, i should stop writing already.... Tired with my life again.. haha...
Bye~

Tied~

Haiz... Too busy to update my blog... Currently having rest from packing~
Tomorrow move house... Not excited or interested..
But i had no choice..
My whole life just get controlled by my family...
WTH!!!
XD
K done with then resting and complaining....
Back to work!
Bye~!

Deep~

This just cant go the way u want it to be sometimes. Lots of people suffer because of this and obviously me and my friends are 1 of the them. Maybe we are not blessed enough to do what we really want. But i know everyone is trying their best to make their wish come true...
Like me, suffering from the pain in my heart is something normal already... No one understands the pain i endure, i hope no 1 does as well. Its unhealthy to endure such pain. I created a barrier so that i wont be hurt again and again and again... But how knows? i got hurt even with such barrier i had... Haha, dunno what to say ar, the only excuse i can give myself is not fated... haha... Someone i wish we never met in the first place and sometimes i really do wish to leave this town like u meantioned....
Truth sometimes can be painful and most of the time shocking... Pretending not to be shocked is nothing easy for me... But making myself not to care bout is is some hard thing~ Haha... No one can run from the truth, so i really have to deal with it. I dont know how to deal with the things i know now... I keep thinking bot it no matter what i am doing. Reading books, Playing Badminton, Playing games, Fitness training and even i bath also it appear in my mind~ This is when the word PEKCHEK is used. Hardly can concentrate what i wanted to do. Haha, God really have fun torturing me...
Yes~! Next monday i going for competition again. This time its a competition that i decided to play for fun. I am injured and i cant partner with the partner who got chance to win the competition. He thought i always angry with him but actually i am not angry with anyone but myself... I did mistakes that even myself cant forgive... I am sorry Lai... So i partner Daryl in this competition... Sorry Daryl, i dont mean ur not good enough to win, its just ur 15! and u still have a long way to go before u can reach the finals of a novice competition. I just want u to have experince in such competition, thats all..
I injured myself again in court today, The pain at my back was really burning... lucky i could endure the pain and played less agressive for the rest of the night... No one really noticed i injured myself, maybe i can go acting liao.. Haha.... I wanan buy pain killer soon. Even now when i am typing my post here i can feel the pain on my back...
See~ pain in the heart and i have to suffer from physical pain as well~! What a life huh? Hope someday i can escape from this kind of life. I know there is 1 east way to escape though.... But it isnt an option i can take now... I dont want to end my life now... There is really too many things i wanna go~! I will put my life in the line until i reaches my goal~! Haha~!!!!
K, i cant wristand the pain already.. gotta go drink something.. will post something more happy next time... Bye~

Steambot~

The continuation of my story last night... After my duck singing, we went Steambot.. First time having steambot with all of them.. Kind of funny... Unluckily it started drizzling while we just started. I insisted not to change the table cos we are too close to the rain... Soon the rain came bigger with strong winds... But actually before the rain really came my back was wet already.. XD
When we start eating.. everyone aimed at the 3-layer pork. We ate like never ate pork before... Soon i was kind of full cos i really ate alot... But the cooking competition between Karen and Chang continued.... They claim that they ate alot cos they cooked alot. Actually it was me, Jme and Cat whos eating... Our hot topic for the night was "Kiasu".. haha.. Well, most student in UCSI have the kiasu spirit. I cant deny myself not being kiasu either. Haha... Unfortunately the 2 kiasu cook keep cooking and the unlucky 3 have to safe the day with our mouths. Haha... Sim joined us but didnt eat. He came cos he was invited by he already eaten. It proofs that he really is a good guy after all since he didnt put us aeroplane.
Sim went of and our eating feast continue~ the oils keep "irrupting" causing damage on us. Kind of funny cos its like we are betting our own life just to wat something. Need to be aware of the irruption cos it hurts~!! Then Jme went for a walk to buy something... Then we actually want to kacau Karen say we prepared something for her coming birthday de... Who knows? i really decided to buy a cake for her at the near by cake house. I went with Jme and the other 3 sit there waiting and didnt know that i decided to buy the cake. When the cake arrived, she still think its a prank... But its real! Jme forget to say " surprise!" which is really funny when she say it after the cake was already cut. Haha.. No photos will be shown in this post because some are not good for health... Oonly those went will understand what i mean.
Happy Birthday Karen~!!!!
thats all for this post... dont really know what to write about the steambot... Its just eating...

Duck~

Lol, dont get negative thoughts because of my title... Its a funny 1, i think.
I went to sing K again today... It all started when i received a message from Chang. He say go out today. Go sing and steambot... I really want the steambot but didnt like the singing idea at all. I cant really sing and its really embarrassing singing in a room with all the pros from my uni... After considering awhile i decided to go lo. We went sang at 2. Oh man... Pros are really pros... totally different from ppl like me. I sang like donald duck sing ar... Then Chang say he sing like old duc, but i think he sing like Gary Chao Ge. Since there were only 2 boys and both call themself duck so i used duck as my title of this post lo.
Yes its embarrasing... can feel the pressure singing with them ar... I still prefer singing in my shower... XD But i am kind of proud also... Not everyone can sing like Donald Duck also~ Haha...
Sang a few songs then i prefer listen instead of singing... And i remember Jme laughed at me.... Haha... I admit it was really funny but kind of stupid too... XD Lucky no ppl record that part ar....
K liao, abit tired and dont really have the mood to type things liao... Will leave the Steambot part for the next post... Nite~~~