Crying~

It's 12:12am. Yes A.M! Its midnight now. I just finished keeping myself warm in a shower not long ago. Yes, it’s so cold.... my heart is freezing; the hot long shower didn't help at all. But it did help me from keeping my tears from dropping. Dunno why, just now suddenly felt like my heart cracked, like a heart attack. It’s to pain and I could feel the icy coldness in my heart... After my bath, I took my time slowly wearing my pajamas and lay on my bed. This time I really felt the tears slowly gliding down my face.. I just hope that Mr. Bati will finish of my subject earlier so I can stay at home. I dunno how to express my feeling now, my hand are lazy to type but I will want to type. I want my heart to stop beating and it still beat. Nothing goes the way I want. Pathetic! Maybe i will post bout it some other time.... I just want to be alone now... Haiz~